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It Hurts It Hurts!!!
Well I'm almost in my 3rd Trimester now... just coming 25 weeks pregnant, and only 15 weeks to go!
(Hang on that can't be right!!!? *Trying to add it up in my stoopid baby brain* HECK!! That's right!!! SHit.. there's not long to go at all! I'd better get cracking on the nursery then shouldn't I!)
Anyway! The baby is around the size of a football now with not a lot of room to move! So it's kickin around like crazy, giving my bladder the kicking of a bloody lifetime, and having me very near to setting up camp in the dunny room again!
It has the hardest little kick, and you can even SEE it's little footprint and toes sometimes! Unless it's something else!? :-S
It's quite a cool experience actually, but it can get kind of annoying when I'm TRYING TO SLEEP!!! Just imagine the heck it's gonna put me through when it is born! :-P
But it's the sharp kicking I can deal with! The braxton hicks on the other hand are flamin horrid!!!
It feels like my pelvis is a frikking wishbone, and there are two strong muscly men - one on each side, playing tug of war with my HIP BONES!!! Heck it's painful!!!
ANd this isn't even the real deal!!
*sigh*
Other then that, it hasn't been the greatest last couple of weeks for me! I've been suffering a bit with insomnia! I seem to be able to fall asleep at the computer just fine... and even while I'm on the DUNNY! But as soon as I hit the bed... I am wide awake! So I haven't been sleeping much at all... to the point where I've even been hallucinating!!!
I've actually been seeing a social worker for the last couple of months, which has been REALLY GOOD! But she believes that I have a serious case of post traumatic stress! I actually had a breakthrough a couple of days ago, where I was able to finally discover the core of my issues! (The one thing that can fix everything if it is changed!) But it is soooo deep and such a long story, I'll save it for another post.
All I'll say for now, is that she was so spot on the mark, I actually fainted when she brought it up because it was that intense and so hard to hear, and something that I have avoided thinking about for like the last 17years it hurts that much!
It is a good thing, because I have come to a huge realisation, but it has also had me an emotional wreck having the past brought up and being confronted with it like a punch in the head!
So it has had me on edge lately, even to the point where little things have made me snap, even smashing cups and plates and stuff just to release a little anger!! :-S Eeeeek!!! But my Social worker says it's all normal at a time like this.
Another thing that has been playing on my mind is that one of my old class mates from high school committed suicide last week! He gassed himself in his car!
Don't feel the need to give me condolences because although we were in the same class, I never really knew him, so I don't feel the pain of losing a friend. But I couldn't imagine how his poor family and close mates must be feeling, so I do feel terrible for them and him, who must have had it tough to go through with giving up his own life.
It has effected me though that someone MY age could end their life so young! I mean, suicide in any situation is devastating, but from someone my age, who went to my school, and was in my class is all the more devastating and scary to me. It's so scary to think that tragedy's like these can happen far too easily.
The suicide rate has certainly increased lately too and it scares the heck out of me!!
Too much pain in the world!!
Speaking of tragedies happening so easily, hubby had the day off work today because he has had serious problems with his back. Some time while I was sleeping, he went out to the pharmacy to get some pain killer, and ended up doing some other things that had him out for hours.
During this time, I was woken by a high pitch alarm and without even remembering I flung up and ran to the kitchen to find a pot and a tea towel on FIRE!!!! Hubby had put some eggs on to cook and completely forgot about it leaving it unattended!
All I can say is THANK HECK for smoke alarms!!! Because without it, our house would probably be burnt to the ground right now, and I most likely could have died!
It's frikken ridiculous that these things can happen so easily!!
But anyways!!!
And now to end this post on a good note...
CONGRATULATIONS to Trub and Crazy who are engaged!!!! Crazy proposed to Trub just hours ago! Woooooohooooo! Bring on the Hens night... Oh! I mean Wedding!!!! :-P
BTW... I may be a little too busy for posting and blogreading in the next couple of weeks, as I have some serious NESTING to do! :-)
xx
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