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Showing posts with label Diet. Show all posts
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Friday, July 4, 2008

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA...


This fella here is a massive cute head!!!

(Excuse me while I catch my breath from laughing so much!!!)
LOL

Ahhhh haha Ok....

Today I was impatiently waiting for hubby to get home from work because I was craving nothing but CHOCOLATE!!! Hurry Up


We usually have Milo in the house which usually helps with my chocky cravings... but after turning the kitchen upside down I had to accept that I just wasn't going to find any! No

So what's a girl to do? I Dunno

Same thing I always do of course!!! Smile
Wait for Hubby to walk through the door and then kick him out again to go and fetch me some chocolate! Out The Door Blushy 2 (Well if he would only remember to take his frikken mobile, then I could just call him!! Shocked )

But who would have thought that all I had to do was bring in the mail, and all would have been sorted!? I Dunno

My ears perked up at the sound of Hubbys car pulling up in the drive way! I dusted myself off and prepared myself to put on the best sad face I could. Crying 1

As usual Hubby, stopped at the letter box and walked in with a hand full of mail. He could already tell that I wanted something! Blah

"Did you happen to bring home some Chocky hunny? Pouty "
I asked.
" No ," he said, "But here is a parcel for you" as he handed it to me. Delivery
"Bouncy 3 Oooooooooo" I said, "I'm not expecting anything" as I took it from hubby as if it were a present at Christmas time! Shaking Gift

I looked at the back to read who it was from...


'Hmmmm' I thought, 'That's weird, maybe he sent me another CD by accident, not realising he already did.' Thinking

But it was not shaped like a CD, it was something completely different! Very Confused

So I figured that there was only one way to find out! And I opened it! Bouncy 3

IT WAS CHOCOLATE!!!!! Shocked

I thought I was hallucinating at first from having strong withdrawals from my chocky! Crazy

But then it hit me!!! Crap Hitting The Fan

In the post I did a while ago titled 'Blogger Celebrities' I wrote about Dazza's awesome music and his amazing generosity with his giving away of free CDS. Well at the end of it, I jokingly added...

'He is a very COOL, TALENTED MUSICIAN! And I am excited just to know him!!!

I'm just kicking myself that I didn't get him to send me a UK candy bar with it! :-P *GiGGLeS* just playing! I have a thing for foreign candy bars!!!'


Well the little cheeky bugger sent me some!!!!! ROTFL

What a big massive cutie head!!! Thank YouDazza!!!

I certainly was not expecting it, and I was only joking around when I wrote it! (I didn't even know that sending food overseas was allowed!!) Shock 2
But I sure as heck am NOT complaining! Drooling Bouncy Smiley

He sent me a crunchie bar...



We do have Crunchie bars here, but who the heck cares! Chocolate is chocolate!!! Candy


BUT! He also sent me a Yorkie Bar? which I have NEVER even heard of...


Clappy YAYYY!!!!!! I am soooooo looking forward to tasting it! (It's in the freezer hardening up, coz as you can imagine - they arrived pretty melted Too Funny )


Apparently this chocky 'is not for girls'!

But Ha!!! Just try and stop me from eating it!!!! Way Too Happy


THANK YOU SO MUCH AGAIN DAZZA!!!!!! Blowing Kisses


Oh and Hubby says Thanks too, for saving him a trip down the shop! You Rock


*GiGGLeS*


xx

Tuesday, May 27, 2008

My Humps, My Humps, My Lovely Lady Lumps!

Bugger me!!!

Am I suppose to gain weight so soon??? I mean Heck!!! At first I actually lost about 5kg because of my sudden healthy eating (for the Belly Bean!)

But now in less than two weeks I've gained just over 6kg ffs!!!

My tits are bloody huge and could poke an eye out, and the rest of my body looks like a flippin puffer fish! Even my clothes are too tight for me already ffs!!

It's almost like there is some kind of padding all over my body! Even Hubby has started calling me 'Plumpy' or 'Cream Puff' or 'Hey Fatty Boomba - Go and eat some cream Pies!' ffs!!!

So it's definately noticable!!!

Ok, Ok, so my appetitie has increased and I've turned into a monster!

I ate a WHOLE pizza and a WHOLE block of chocolate the other day!!! (The Bub Grub was hungry! *GiGGLeS*)

But still! Other than that I have eaten very healthy foods, but I still look like I could be popped with a pin for crying out loud!!!

Well at least the Pepper taste has gone now, but NOW all I can smell is PVA GLUE!!!!

The even stranger part is, I actually like it, and I am craving to eat the bloody stuff! Thank heck theres none in the house!!! Coz it could only end badly!!

I have my first scan on Friday WOOOOHOOOOO! But I'm not looking forward to drinking 1 litre and a half of water ffs! I HATE WATER!!! I shower in the stuff ffs!!!

If only I could drink straight vodka instead! (Hey it's clear!!!) But they wont let me! The rude buggers! :-P *sigh*

Anyways...

I'm gonna go blob out on the bed and feel sorry for myself!

I might even go eat some cream pies! *sniff sniff*

*GiGGLeS*

Be back soon!

xx

Tuesday, May 20, 2008

Step... away.... from my.... PIE!!!!!


*GiGGLeS*

Pregnant or not! I am the kind of girl who LOVES her food, and I have been known to have the most bizzar cravings ever since I was a wee one!

Oh heck yeah! I LOVE eating french fries with icecream and cherry tomatos with strawberries! I guess it's because I'm so indecisive about whether I'm craving something sweet or something savoury, so I have them both together to ballance out my taste buds!

It's ridiculous!

If I had a dollar for each time someone asked me if I was pregnant because of my strange eating habbits, I'd be loaded!!! But now, that I'm actually pregnant, I'm actually craving NORMAL foods!!!

Well... I've been craving for gravy on my chips now instead of icecream! *GiGGLeS*

Point is, I have always been a craver and always will be! Food is my boyfriend and eating is the highlight of my day!

I get sooooo excited when I have something delicious sitting in front of me ready to be gobbled up BY ME!!!! Oh how my eyes light up with joy!!!

I am a very emotional eater! And I don't just mean the kind that eats when she is depressed (though I wont deny that I do!) But right now I'm actually talking about the emotional type that cries when she drops a chip on the ground and it's too dirty to pick up and eat!

It's history, such a waste... one less chip that I get to gobble!

*GiGGLeS*

Oh yes.... when I demand TLC from Hubby, I'm not talking about Tender Love & Care.... no no, I'm talking about a Tomato, Lettuce & Cheese sanga!!! *Flutters Eyelashes*

LOL!!! When I ask Hubby if he has been cheating on me, I'm not talking about with another woman, I'm talking about "Has he been eating my favourite foods with out me!!?" *GiGGLeS*

And God help him if he has!!! Oh Heck! He'll never live it down! I'm always snooping in his car for any empty take out wrappers he may have bought without me! (Any excuse to send him down the shop and get me a treat!) :-P

But, I don't always have the kind of relationship I would like to have with my food! You see, there is another man involved... a man... that gets in the way of me and my beloved food... a man... that interupts my eating affair... and it shits me to tears.... *sigh*

I am torn between my food and HUBBY!!!!!!!!!!!

Ok... so... My eyes may be bigger than my belly (tho not for long with the belly bean growing!) but my heart is bigger than my eyes!

And as much as I adore my food and want to be alone with it, I am not a greedy person! Many times I will be sitting there with a yummy juicy burger in my hands, my mouth is watering and my heart is doing backflips at the thought of the dilicious taste that I am about to experience! (Bit over the top I know!)

But just before I take a bite, I look up over at hubby... to see the same look of delight on his face.... AT MY BURGER!!!! *Sigh*!!!!!!!!

As much as I want to tell him to shove it, it breaks my heart to see him with out a burger of his own!!! So what do i do?... I Share it with him!!! And everytime he eats a heck of a lot more than I do ffs!!!

Don't get me wrong, I absolutely love sharing! Any oppurtunity to do a good deed for someone unexpectedly and I'm on it!

But these particular times with Hubby REALLY makes my blood boil and I'll tell you why...

This is roughly how all of our conversations go, before these situations...

Me: "Hunny Hunny Hunny Hunny Hunny *Flutters Eyelashes*"

Him: "Oh ffs! What are you craving now?"

Me: "Ummmmmmm (What ever I'm craving for at the time)"

Him: *Lecturing me about how unhealthy it is and how it tastes disgusting anyway*

Me: "*puppy dog look*... *Doing my best to try and convince him that it's a matter between life and death, while sometimes using a bit of emotional blackmail and what ever else I can use to my advantage*

Him: "OK fine! But only if you *gives me a chore I have to do, which he and I both know I will never get done*"

Me: "Oh of course Hunny!!! I'll do it Mozzas!"

Him: *Muttering* (While grabbing his keys [silently because he knows I can't stand the sound of them] and heads out to the car to drive off and get my treat!)

Me: (Yelling to him as he heads to the door) "And make sure you get yourself something too, cause I don't want you stealing my food again!!! I'M TOO HUNGRY TO HAVE YOU EAT IT ALL!!!!"

Him: "Yeah Yeah! I can't stand that crap anyway! And I'm not hungry, I've just eaten!" (as he gets into his car.)

Me: "Thats what you say everytime! But this time I'm not sharing with you!!!"

Him: *Driving off*

Me: *Waiting anxiously and getting excited about wrapping my lips around my craving!*


10 MINS LATER.


Me: *Tripping over the cats, excitedly running out the door to get my food*..... *Disapointed to find that some of it has already been eaten by Hubby!!!*

Him: "Sorry I got a bit hungry"

Me: "So why didn't you get yourself something like I said????"

Him: "Because I wasn't hungry when I ordered it!"

Me *steaming* (But calmed down when I get a bite of the delicious taste.)

Him: "Can I've a bite?"

Me: *Flippin angry that I only got to have a few bites out of MY OWN craving! But I can't say no to him because I feel bad*

Him: *Finishes it off!!!!!!!!!!*

RURRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!

Seriously! It will be like a buger or something! By the time it gets to me there is only half left, and after a couple of bites Hubby is eating the REST!!!

This always leaves me emotional and hungry with the teasing taste in my mouth!!!!!!!

But the other day... our conversation went a little differently... and I don't think it will be happening again for a while (I think it's pregnancy hormones)

Me: "Hunny Hunny Hunny Hunny, I'd kill for a Brumbys pie!!"

Him: "Gross! Brumbys pies are the most hideous pies in town! Plus they are ridiculously over priced and not healthy for you! No Way!"

Me: *Not in the mood for the argument, but desperate for a pie! So I plead my case once again until I finally get my own way*

Him: "OK fine! But only just this once!" (As he grabs his keys)

Me: "Now listen to me" (As I sit him down to talk in all seriousness as if someone had just died!)

Him: *Looking confused*

Me: "Can you please get 2 pies, to have one for back up..."

Him: "Heck no! They are waaaayyyyyy too expensive!!"

Me: "I'm serious Hun, I'm hungry, I'm obsessed with Brumby Pies, you never let me have them, you're letting me this once, so I wanna make sure I actually get to eat it - without you stealing it from me!"

Him: *Laughing* "What are you talking about? I HATE Brumbys Pies! Don't worry, I wont want to touch the awful thing, and besides, I'm not hungry!"

Me: "You say that every time hun!!! But you ALWAYS end up eating more than I do, and you always leave me hungry and wanting more, it's torture!"

Him: *In disbelieve that I'm so serious over a damn pie!!* "OK, just this once, I'll get 2 Pies just in case, but you know you'll end up eating both of them because I can't stand them!"

Me: "YOU BEAUTY!!!! I wont complain about that!!"


So when Hubby left to fetch the pies, I was overwhelmed with excitement that today was the day that I get to have my treat to myself!!! And what was even more exciting was the possibility of having TWO PIES OMFG!!!!

Hubby actually sounded genuine this time! So I just really believed him!


10 MINS LATER


Me: *Almost breaking my neck rushing to the food*

Hubby: *Handing me a single, uneaten pie*

Me: "Did you get 2 pies?"

Hubby: *Blushing* "Yeah, but I ate the other one on the way home"

Me: *Actually relieved that he ate his and not mine* "See!!!! I told you!!!"

Him: "Yeah, well it was disgusting! I only ate it because I was hungry!"

Me: *Sitting down as I pull out my pie* "Ah well! I've got mine, that's all that matters" (as I take a bite.)

Him: *Staring at my pie*

Me: *Death Staring him*

Him: "Can I've a bite of yours?"

Me: "FFS WHAT DID I TELL YOU!!!!!!!!???????????????? THIS IS MY PIE!!! MYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY PIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

Hubby: *Shocked*

Me: *Feeling guilty that I just snapped at him, and hesitantly handed him my pie* "Just a little bite... I mean it!!"

Hubby: *Bites half the pie away and screws up his face* "Yuck! That's disgusting!"

Me: *Snatching it off him* "ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME???? ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME?????? YOU STEAL MY FOOD, YOU EAT HALF OF IT IN A BITE AND DON'T EVEN ENJOY IT???? LEAVING ME WITH A COUPLE OF PATHETIC BITES??? ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME????????????????

Him: *Running away*

Me: *Shoving the lowsy leftovers in my mouth as my eye twitches uncontrollably*


Yup! He wont be messing with my cravings for a while!!!...
(Hopefully ffs!!)

mmmmm pie!!!

*Looks for Hubby*

xx

Saturday, April 19, 2008

God I'm good!... Just ask me!!!



:-P *GiGGLeS*

Hello. my name is VBF and I am a cigarettoholic...

Audience says "Hi VBF"


...it has been 5 days since my last cigarette!!!!


*Audience CHEERS*



How good am I??? 5 days!!!!!!!??? FIVE DAYS FIVE DAY FIVE DAYS I TELL YOU!!!
Can you believe it? Coz I can't! It's just INSANE! I must be NUTS!... Oh that's right! I AM!!!! :-)

*sigh* So I can't believe I've actually done it! I've quit! And I GOT PAST DAY 3!!!


When ever I'm trying to quit a habit of mine, I usually CAN NOT get past the third day!!! Seriously... I am constantly buggering my diet on Day three!
It's the hardest day ever, because on the first day, it's exciting to make a drastic change for the better, so it's a bit like a fun challenge really.

The second day, you're so proud of yourself because you got through the first day, and you realise "Hey! I CAN Do this!"

But on the 3rd day... it's like... "OK IT'S NOT FUNNY ANYMORE!!!! I NEED MY FIX FFS!!!!!"


It's sooooo true!!!!


BUT!!! Once I get through the third day... my body seems to have adjusted as if to say "FINE! Be healthy! See if I care ffs!"
Third day is the HUMP day... and I'm sooooooooo glad I got through it!!!

You proud of me? *Flutters Eyelashes* Girl 3


Surprisingly... I haven't been gaining weight like I thought I would! I've been craving for nothing but junk since I quit - to occupy my mouth ffs! BUT Because we are so broke... we can't afford any treats, which means I HAVE to do without! LOL! So I've pretty much quit JUNK FOOD TOOO! :-O!!!

I've actually lost weight... because I've been pacing around the house, cursing under my breath - craving cigarettes! So without even realising... I've been getting exercise!!! And exercise + stress = WEIGHT LOSS! :-) YIPPEEEE!!! SO I'm not complaining!


PLUS!!! I have actually been cleaning the house!!! Only to keep myself busy of course... *phhh* as if I would clean for the sake of a clean house ffs! :-P


So I'll be Damned.... Taking up smoking was probably the best thing i ever did... because when it came time to quit... EVERYTHING changed for the better! :-)
I'm healthier... I'm keeping active... I'm saving money... Hubby wants to kiss me a lot more coz I don't stink of cigarette smoke *GiGGLeS* ... My teeth wont rot... I'm losing weight.... And I'm a better housewife!!!!


ooooo did I mention I've quit drinking too? :-)!

Yeah... I'm not a huge drinker these day's anyway... so it's no big deal! But I have ocassions coming up that I have promised myself not to drink at! Hubby even brought home a carton of Bundy Rums (My Favourite... which i like to call 'Liquid Chocolate' Because it's DELISH!!!) He got them for me as a Congratulations on quitting smoking!!!!

Bless his little cotton socks the sweetheart... BUT I'M NOT READY FOR ALCOHOL!!! Not while I'm trying to quit smoking.... no siree!!! I smoke like a chimney when i'm on the piss!!!


So I let him go down the road to his mates house and he shared the carton with them! *GiGGLeS*

Nuts aye??? I have no idea where all this discipline has come from!!!


Actually I lie.... I do know... and I should probably tell you...

I've been keeping quiet about this, because I don't want to jinx anything as I've been let down in the past! But people have been like "OMFG are you ok VBF???, It's not like you to be such a health freak!" And it's TRUE! It is not like me to be a health freak AT ALL!!!

And the truth is... I'm not doing it for me!

Hubby and I have decided to try for a baby again! :-) *hlkajhdufhwhefhabmns* SOOOO exciting!!!

We've had 2 miscarraiges in the past, which has been very devastating for me!
But this time, I'm doing everything properly to avoid any complications!!!
YES!! Thats WHY I have quit smoking and alcohol and Junk food! :-)

To be honest... I could never do it for myself, I don't give a rats arse about my own health (sad but true) but I'd change it all in a heart beat for the life of my own child! :-) THAT'S what's keeping me strong! :-)
Crazy eh? It's amazing the sacrifices we make for someone elses life!!!

EVEN Though I'm not even pregnant yet... and haven't even met the little shit! :-P *GiGGLeS*
I've even signed up to a preconception website and have a personalised ovulation calender plan!!! It guides me through the process and tells me when I'm most likely to fall pregnant and all the rest of it!
I wont get into details because some of the stuff they want to know is SOOO gross!!!

like...


'What is your state of mucus?'

Damp & Sticky?
Dry & Sparse
Thick & Tacky?
Wet and more Profuse?
Wet, Stretchy & Slippery / raw egg white?


EWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW


Oh crap! I just got into the details didn't I!

Sorry about that, I've got serious problems!

*GiGGLeS*


But HECK NO! I aint going as far as checking my mucus every week ffs! YUCK!!!!! Just tell me when Hubby will get lucky!!! :-P

Ahhhh so there you go!!! I'm all set up and ready to start cooking a bun in the oven!!!

ISN'T IT JUST EXCITING!!!!????!!!!??????? :-)

Bounce


Have a great weekend kids!!!

xx

Friday, April 4, 2008

Ok... I really mean it this time!

*GiGGLeS*

Ok so you're all probably wondering... 'Did she give in to a cigarette?... Did she?"..... *GiGGLeS* Of course she did! If I didn't then this post wouldn't have started so calmly! :-P

Lets just say that I have an irresistible begging face, that Hubby just can not say no to!...


Works every time!!!



Ok... so maybe it wasn't exactly THAT easy! Hubby is a man of contracts! He gave in yes, but under stupid conditions! *sigh* He gave me a piece of paper and a pen, and read out these words for me to write out...


(Yeh I know there is no 'h' in signed, but I was *sighing* when I signed the bloody thing!) But I gotta tell you, and I find this SOOO funny! That as he read out word for word for me to write out, the poor idiot read out the wrong name! The silly bugger seems to forget that we are married, and seems to think that I still go by my maiden name ffs! So with out even realising, he had told me to write out my full MAIDEN name instead of my married name! *GiGGLeS*

I was chuckling to myself the whole time I was writing, and thought that he would notice when i finally signed in my married name. But he didn't!!! :-D And I wasn't gonna say a word until he handed me my cigarettes!

Sure enough, when he handed them over, I said "Hey Hunny... your contract is not valid... na na na na boo boo :-P" (I did a funny little dance for more effect!) He looked at me blankly and said "huh? Why?" I then pointed out to him that the name was incorrect and did not match the signature I gave! *GRINS*

He had one look and said "Oh ffs you cheeky cow" and then he ripped it up with a smirk on his face! *GiGGLeS InSaNeLy* I WIN AGAIN!!! :-P

But seriously... even after I got my way and after my little scam, I felt disappointed in myself for giving in again! Well... after about my 5th cigarette anyway! :-P

*sigh*

But I really mean it this time!!!! I AM going to quit smoking and get into a much healthier lifestyle!!!

My good mate trublmaka even came up with an awesome idea...

She suggested that instead of attempting to do EVERYTHING at once (like the wonder woman I like to think I am... not! :-P) She said why not do one step at a time. Get to cleaning one room at a time, and each room can represent another change in my life.

EG. ROOM: Clean the Kitchen.

ACHIEVEMENT: Develop a healthy eating routine.

REWARD: Better health and weight loss.

I thought that was the coolest advice ever!!! So we are both going to do it together! :-)!!! I have allocated a different change in my life for each room I clean! I'll just go at my own pace, and when one achievement is made, I'll move on to the next! :-) Thanks Trub!!! You're the bestest! xx

I've got a real good feeling about this! :-)

(I say as I take a puff on my cigarette ffs!)

*GiGGLeS*

xx

Thursday, April 3, 2008

Oi!!!!.....YOU!!!!....


Yes YOU!!!!..... *Grabs you by the collar of your shirt* ....
You ugh... got a cigarette I can bum off ya?.... I'll be your best friend???...
NO???...... Well do you have a gun?.... So I can put myself out of my MISERY FFS???

*Sigh* Well my next post WAS suppose to be about this big 'Breakthrough' about changing my life and getting myself healthy with quitting smoking and changing my lifestyle for the better! BUT I had my last cigarette yesterday, and since then, instead of feeling positive about the new change, the whole thing has HIT me like a bullet train, and now I'm just BLOODY AGITATED AS HELL!!! Grrrrrr!!! Blah

CAN ya believe it though??? I started YESTERDAY, Not Mozzas... YESTERDAY!!! *Sigh* ... Well... the quitting smoking thing any way!

I WAS suppose to quit my junk food as well today, but OMFG!!! I've got to keep my mouth occupied with something ffs!!!! (Mind out of the gutter peoples!!!)

Hubby has had this chocolate sitting in the freezer for a while now, and he specifically told me that I AM NOT allowed it! He has been saving it for himself for when he feels like it! But let me tell you something.... THAT CHOCOLATE is SOOOOO Getting eaten... by me... RIGHT NOW!

Yup! I've got the chocolate all over my face to prove it! And in between chews I'm stuffing my face with the last packet of Doritos which also belong to Hubby! AND one of his last alcoholic UDL's which I'm sculling, which is actually making it worse ffs, because I feel like smoking even more when I'm on the piss!!! If you could only see me... I am so far from a Lady right now!!!

I'm as stuffed as a teddy bear! But I aint eating for hunger, I'm eating to distract my mouth from cigarettes! But how is that gonna work??? I wanna lose weight too... heck! It's like I have to choose one or the other!!! Smoke or be fat?! boooooooo I'm not having fun at all!

Ooooo I must go! Hubby just got home.... I'm gonna go and beg him for just one last packet ffs!!!!

*wipes chocolate off face, and hides rubbish*

Wish me Luck! Please

*GiGGLeS*

xx

Wednesday, March 19, 2008

I'll start Mozzas!

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For all those who don't understand my gibberish yet, 'mozzas' is my slang for 'tomorrow'! *GiGGLeS*


I think it's an aussie thing, we seem to shorten words and change letters! If it has a 'rr' in it, we replace it with a 'zz' and 'en' becomes an 'a'!


Eg. Darren = Dazza!


We're a bunch of nut jobs I tell you!


Anyways, what will I start Mozzas? My diet, that's what!... (yeh right!)


BLERGH!


Since getting married I put on like 12 Kg! Husbands are soooo fattening ffs! So I started this weight loss group with my friends and family and I managed to lose 7kg! But then I broke my diet for one night and haven't been able to get back on track since ffs! So I've still got a few more Kg to lose!


I tell you, when I diet, it has to be soooo strict! It' s much like my obsessive ways with cleaning! If I can't make the whole house spotless I wont touch it at all! So with dieting, I wont allow myself to eat any junk what so ever! But the second I do, it's all over rover, and I tell myself, "eh! I'll start mozzas!"


But since I am starting mozzas, I'll pig out on all the junk that i love and that I wont be allowed to have on my diet the day before! Ugh yeah... that's what happens every frikking day! I fail to start mozzas and I pig out again to start the next day! phhhhh!!! It never happens!


I LOVE MY FOOOOOD!!! I just love to cuddle up with hubby on the couch and watch movies and pig out on junk food! Chocolate is my boyfriend!


I'm a real comfort eater too though! I think a lot of it has to do with my 'Monster 3' story! I was thinking about it the other day, when I was going through all that crap and my friends left me, all I had was my food! I would sit by myself at lunch time and all I had to keep me company was my food! I'd use my lunch as a way to numb the painful thoughts that were going through my mind at the time! So I think that has a lot to do with it too. Even today when i get upset, I just want to sit in a quiet corner and EAT!


But ffs! I need to get my arse into gear! I use to be very active and exercise everyday, but these days I'm hardly active at all!


Seriously the only exercise I've had in the last few months was a few days ago. A little boy came to my door and told me that our dogs had escaped!!! So I went running down the street like a maniac IN MY TOWEL to catch the bastards! ONLY TO FIND OUT that they weren't even my dogs ffs! My dogs were home the whole time!!! Stupid brain farts!


But I tell you what! I felt like I was gonna die when I came home, I was huffin and puffin like I'd just run a marathon!!! I need to quit smoking too I think!


Yeh Yeh.... I'll start mozzas! Rolling Eyes


*GiGGLeS*

xx